i did this post cos im like really desperate. no one to turn to la. shitty promo results, barely got promoted = crappy inside but looking good on the surface. i just realised how close i was to getting retained. bloody close. on hindsight, it's damn shitty. EVERYONE's getting decent grades or better than what they expected. i mean, everybody worked so damn hard for promos like weeks in advanced. i thought i could handle it with 3 and half weeks of hardcore chionging, but turns out it was crap. really, i overestimated myself. weak foundation plus short studying period = lousy promos. seeing everybody do so well for promos really made me feel crappy. it's different from ri, where don't do well also don't care, well, at least for some. but now everybody's putting the effort. hell, i should have stopped training earlier instead of after sept hols. on hindsight, not making the national team wouldnt have mattered as much as getting better grades for promos. it makes getting into the national team or the less sweeter, knowing that there's those niggling results at the back of my mind and how to pick up during the hols.
like what manquan said a few days ago, the only regrets in life are the should haves, would haves and could haves.
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